The Ups and Downs...And Everything Else.

Books, books and more books!

2012-01-14T21:19:00.009+08:00

**Warning: this is a long-ass entry**
I love books. I am a bookworm. Reading is one of my hobbies. I have 5 shelves full of books in my room.

Two out of the above four statements are false. One of the above statements is false following the false two statements. Like, if A = B and B = C, hence A = C. That kind of thing.

I don't love books. I only like them - a little bit more than normal people do. Love is a strong word for me. Kak Nani loves books. I like them.

I am not a bookworm. I was a self-confessed bookworm. But now I only really read books when I have other urgent things to do. For example, finish up an assignment, study for exam, memorise Surahs for KAFA exams, write a paper, clean my room, etc. You get the drift. Somehow, I manage to read thick novels and do those other urgent things, and still succeed in finishing both tasks, something of which wouldn't have happened if I don't have urgent things to do. No urgent things = novels won't get read = urgent things won't get done.

Which is funny to me. Reading books are supposed to be a leisure time thing, no? Weirdly, if I have a lot of free time, I find myself procrastinating. Not reading books, but procrastinate.

Hence, reading is not one of my hobbies. I mean, I like reading, but I won't say it is my hobby.

That left me with only one true statement: that I have five shelves full of books in my room.

Books make me happy. More than anything else. After good foods. And video games. In that order.

So, when the government decided to give us students RM200 worth of book vouchers, I was like, fuck yes! Sure, it would be nice if we receive RM200 cash, tapi kau ingat kerajaan bodoh sangat nak bagi cold hard cash dekat pelajar? Orang bagi duit PTPTN untuk beli buku pelajaran, kau pegi beli motor baru, handphone baru, belanja awek baru. Sekarang padan muka, nak tak nak kau kena beli jugak buku dengan baucar RM200 tu. Wek wek.

So yeah, last Friday I headed to Borders to check out what books can I buy. RM200 is A LOT of money to spend on books - at least for me. I'm the type who's stingy. I don't want to spend more than RM25 on a book that I'll only read once. Sebab tu gua suka gila kedai buku secondhand kat Chowrasta tu.

Aaaaaaaand *drum roll*, look at what have I bought!
Five of Paulo Coelho's books - because I love Paulo Coelho. Yes, love.
Travel guides to Paris and Italy - just in case one day I step foot in either of those countries. Oh wait. I've just realised it only says Paris and not France. Maaaaaaaaaaaaaan. Look at what 70% bins at a bookstore have made me. A bimbo, ironically.
Daniel Hecht's Puppets - it's a crime thriller. I like crime thriller. I don't like chick lits.
Emily Bronte's Wuthering Heights - because you can't leave this world without reading Wuthering Heights. Or Pride and Prejudice. Or Little Women. I have a soft spot for classics even though it'll take years for me to finish one book. Except for the last two I've mentioned.

So the total was RM232.55. Technically I only spent RM32.55. Whee! I love free money.

I know I should've spent the money on books that have something to do with my study instead. But to my defence, they don't have it here. I need to order it online. And they don't accept the vouchers for online orders. Boohoo. So, story books it is. :)

Excuse me while I figure out how to stuff my newly bought books in my (full) bookshelves.

Thank you, government!

I'm so happy, I can barely breathe. Puppy dogs and sugar frogs and kitten's baby teeth! [10 points for whoever get this last paragraph. ;)]

Mindef oh Mindef...

2012-01-10T23:15:00.007+08:00

As a translation student, I am really disappointed (and dumbfounded, with jaw dropping to the floor, followed by laughing non-stop) when I read about your epic snafu in translating your website.

Using Google Translate.

Seriously, Mindef? I mean, really, are you fucking kidding me?

Ahem. Pardon my French.

You guys have billions of RM at your disposal, and yet you used Google Translate to do your website translation? Really?! Kedekut taik hidung masin tahap apa ni? Tak luak pun duit tu kalau korang guna penterjemah profesional wey.

Sabor je lah.

Excuse me while I go and burn my hard-earned bachelor degree in Translation and Interpreting.

Goodness.

Signs

2012-01-08T14:11:00.003+08:00

I rarely (in fact, as far as I can remember, never) do a blog post yang ada unsur-unsur keagamaan ni. But this, I have to share. Taken from Farah's blog. Thanks Farah for letting me share this post!

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Let me take a moment to show some kindness,
To the folks that thought blindness was a disease that effected the eyes alone,
I promise I won't judge you, I barely know how to love you
And like fools we preach rules, but we don't even follow our own.

Everybody needs comfort,
Some people find it in this; some people find it in that
And some people just don't find it at all.

But this world is full of signs
From the moon to the stars in the sky
From the bees and the bugs, like a seed in your blood
Like a feen to a drug, makes you need to look up
And questions what's up, why you deal with this stuff?
When your spirits are crushed and you trek through the rough
But like thunder it struck, said "Be" and it was

All the signs that were sent, they finally make sense
You feel the torment, so you need to repent
When your heart is cement, it's hard as a brick
Cause your soul is worth more than the dollars and cents,
All the money in the world couldn't buy you happiness
Cause "verily, it is in the remembrance of Allah, that hearts do find rest"

And do not get it confused,
I'm not a scholar or a preacher
I'm just a regular dude, who makes mistakes too
But we are reflections true,
So I can't talk about me without talking about you

And who knew?
We would end up in a place so confused
Where little boys wanna be like little girls and little girls just wanna be abused
Where they terrorize the truth, mentally arrest the youth
Even though there is no law but Allah's and momma didn't raise no fool.

And who knew?
That expecting the world to treat you fairly because you think you're a good person,
Would be a little like expecting a bull not to attack you because you're a vegetarian,
You can't begin to learn what you think you already know
In men's own ignorance we forgot that women once watched us grow
And before that you were a tiny ball of flesh without any bones
And before that you were just unknown, and now look behold
You have the arrogance to assume that you just made it on your own?
But what were you but a chewed piece of clot, before you grew
And who knew you would trace your ancestry back to a zoo?
You must have really come from apes with your monkey point of views
Even the devil believes in God, so what does that make you?

And it's true
Sometimes I feel like Noah preaching to a packed empty room
Nobody wanna listen until we start rolling out two by two
I'm a big fan of Abraham; never break-up from Jacob
Joseph had the kind of beauty that you couldn't find in makeup
Moses was to Pharaoh what stones are to arrows
And David to Goliath was truth is to silence
Following, Solomon I'd get down too
Contrary to popular belief, Jesus is my homeboy too.
So peace be upon the whole crew who came to teach what we never knew
Even though few caught the groove, they never turned blue
Never confused what was true even if it was a taboo
Never came for fame or praise but to praise who they prayed too

And who knew?
That an unlettered man from the middle of the desert,
Would change the whole world from darkness into heaven
You may have every title, every big shot degree
But you still can't explain: Alif-Lam-Meem

And who knew?
There would be so many views and ways to explain
That he's closer to you than your jugular vein
So if you complain that God must be cruel
Can you give Allah, all that he gives to you?
From the breath that you breathe, to the trees that you feed
From the eyes that you see, to the sea that you eat
If I cut you, you bleed, than you heal magically
Were the illest machines, manufactured for means.
The concepts extreme but this world is a dream,
It's not what it seems filled with lies and deceit
The truth is serene so wake up smell the deen
Praises be to He, His Oneness, Supreme
Totally unique, in no need of sleep
Not like you or me, his greatness complete
No partners, no mates, no father, no sons
No discount 3 in 1, just Allah Azwa Jal
Even the birds sing his name,
The Lord of all the worlds
Glory be to He and to Allah is our return.

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My editor/proofreader alter ego kicked in. I had to proofread and edit the whole transcription before I paste it in here. I don't just copy and paste. I copy, edit and paste. ;)

Azam tahun baru?

2012-01-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

Nak kawin.

Ok tipu.

Takde azam pun ha. Yang pasti, kena siapkan tesis jugak walau macam mana pun.

Pastu baru boleh kawin.

Hahaha gatai!

The last day of 2011

2011-12-31T10:31:00.002+08:00

I think I've done this for a few years already, just to recap good things that had happened this year.
January - For the first time ever I see what ngaku chips are. Slurp.
Febuary - For the first time ever (jugak) I went to Fort Cornwallis. Nama je orang Penang, padahalllllll.
March - I became an emcee for a postgraduate workshop. Not my first time, but still. :D
April - My students' farewell party! Eceh student. Haha. After 3 semesters of teaching them, now they are ready to fly and contribute something to the society. :)
May - Research proposal got approved after failing the first time. Finally!
June - Ehhh I only have one entry in June. Hahaha. But in that one entry I was telling how I'm supposed to fly out to Boston for a conference. Sadly I had to cancel due to my father's illness. Sob. I think we went to Langkawi before my father got admitted to the hospital.
July - Someone came back to me, and I was happy (only to be deceived even more, tapi itu belakang kira, yang penting time tu aku happy).
August - RAYA WEI!!!
September - My birthday. Pocket belanja pizza. A dear friend belanja aiskrim so suwitttt blanja aiskrim hahah. A long distance friend bought me a book. Happy happy. :)
October - For the first time ever, I went to a makeover event!
November - That dear friend who belanja-ed me ice cream for my birthday did a surprise visit, and I got one good news after I didn't get to go to Boston.
December - Meeting high school friends after so long! :D

Honorable mentions: The Royal Wedding, of course. Scruffy got a girlfriend. I've got to know many wonderful people. I finally learned how to wear a pashmina as hijab, and now it's all I wear. My dressing style has gotten better, I guess. And lastly, I have so much perfumes in my drawer, no thanks to online shopping. Hahaha!

Have a good 2012, people!

High School Friends

2011-12-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

11 years and still going strong. Minus the one on my left. I only (really) knew her for 2 years. But hopefully we will achieve the same milestone, too!
:)

And the worst thing was...

2011-12-17T11:01:00.002+08:00

...when you came back, after so long, said "hi", acted like nothing had happened and didn't even offer your apology.

Seriously? Are you that cocky?

Did you really think that I would forget the things that you did?

Really?

Not many things can make me speechless, but this, this definitely gets into the list.

Cerita ni takde kena ngena dengan #1 dalam entry di bawah. :)

Pesanan Ikhlas Dari Penaja

2011-12-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

#1. Kalau sibuk macam mana sekali pun, jangan lupa tegur2 orang tersayang (atau kucing tersayang. Teddy bear ker). Tak perlu tanya soalan retorik macam, "apa khabar?", lagi2 kalau yang ditanya tu tak paham maksud soalan retorik macam tu dan terus menjawab dengan panjang lebar mengenai keadaan diri sekarang. Kau sah2 takde masa nak dengar semua tu kan? Bila tak layan kang, yang ditanya tu merajuk pulak. Jadi untuk mengelakkan kejadian camtu, cakap la, "nak cakap hai jer. :)" Cukup la camtu. Walaupun pada pukul 4 pagi. Kau ada masa nak makan, mandi, menjawab panggilan alam, check email, tulis "hi" tu dan tekan 'hantar' tak ambil masa sampai seminit pun. Kan?

#2. Kalau tak suka, cakap. Tak pun, dalam zaman fesbuk ni, hide jer feed orang tu. Tak pun ignore jer. Yang ni baru jer diaplikasikan. I think he got the hint. Thanks for being smart, dude. Kenapa nak semak2 kepala untuk mengupdate maklumat2 tak berguna tentang orang yang tak digemari tu, lepas tu sakit hati sendiri, lepas tu you shade that person. Like, whyyyyyyyyyy would you wanna do that? Ini untuk haters, terutamanya. Macam, kau tak suka Avril (aku ler tu), lepas tu, bila ada lagu baru, gigih dengar, just so that you can have bad things to say about it. Tapi dalam diam layan jugak (aku ler tu). Tak ke bangang namanya tu? Kan?

#3. Shading other person is not cool, people. We are not in high school anymore. Yawn. Kan?

#4. Bila berjalan di jalan raya, tolong la jalan atas kaki lima yang kontraktor dah buat tu. Apasal gigih jugak nak berjalan di sebelah kaki lima tu, aka, atas jalan raya? Sorang takpe lagi, ini jalan berdua, sebelah-menyebelah pulak tu. Bontot masing2 dah la besar. Lepas tu, dekat corner, tak pandang belakang terus nak lintas. Kau nak try test padding bumper kau tu ker? Gerenti tak berkesan punya la bumper kau tu. Kan?

#5. Tolong selidik dalam2 dulu sebelum kau tekan butang "share" artikel mengenai satu2 benda yang haram. Ini tak, asal nampak jer perkataan "haram", terus kau tekan "share". Asal nampak jer perkataan "jangan", terus kau nak tekan "share". Ditekan atas dasar untuk mengingati? Palotak kau. Ini sama la dengan orang yang gigih memberi nasihat, tapi nasihat tu takde asas pun. Berfikir sebelum bercakap. Selidik sebelum share. Baru la orang tak hide feed kau. Kan?

Cukup la 5 pesanan ikhlas. Nanti kalau ada lagi aku tambah ler.

Nanti dah 2012. Hnggghhh siapkan tesis, ayaaaaq!

Paling menyampah bila...

2011-12-07T11:17:00.003+08:00

...ada orang nak berkenalan dengan kita, tapi dok berahsia-rahsia pulak.

Somebody apparently gave my number to a guy. Now, this is one of my pet peeves. I hate people giving out my number without asking my permission beforehand. To a guy or a girl.

Back to the story. This is going to be a long one. Don't say you didn't get warned.

Selalunya aku takkan layan number yang tak dikenali, lelagi bila ayat yang dimulakan ialah "hai, nak berkenalan boleh?" Do you seriously think I'm 15, baru nak belajar mengenali lelaki, lepas tu tergedik2 kegumbiraan bila ada lelaki nak kenal dengan kita? Seriously? Tapi nombor yang tak dikenali ni bagi salam, pastu siap tulis nama aku. So I thought, okay, mungkin orang ni aku kenal tapi takde simpan nombor dalam hp aku ke apa, pastu aku tanya "who's this?"

"Saya XXX, ikhlas nak berkenalan dengan ayaq (ok he didn't say ayaq, I know you guys prolly know my name already, but I'm not gonna take any chances here heh)..."
"Mana dapat number saya?"
"USM tu bukan besar sgt pun..blablablablablablabla"
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"Cepat bagi tau, mana dapat number saya?"
"Tu semua tak penting, blablablablablabla ikhlas nak berkawan blablablablabla ikhlas sana ikhlas sini blablablabla"

Pastu dia call. Malam tu diri agak bengong. So dengan bengong2nya pegi jawab call (wrong move. Damn). Dalam perbualan dekat 10 minit tu ada la dalam 5 juta kali aku tanya sapa bagi nombor aku kat dia. Dan ada la jugak dalam 5 juta kali dia takmau bagitau. Aku cakap, fine, susah2 sangat, esok jumpa aku dalam kampus. Have lunch together ke apa. Aku tak reti nak layan2 thru hp ni. Nak kenal sangat, jumpa aku terus. Dia cakap tak boleh, mungkin ada keja. Mungkin? Silap besar la bro. Offer tu hanya sekali je.

End of story.

I bloody hate people doing that. Dude, if you want to approach me, you better be prepared to tell me your real name, instead of a nickname, tell me where did you get my number, the name of our mutual friend, where do you work and things like that. Kau nak berkenalan dengan aku, jadi jawab semua soalan yang aku tanya. Kau tanak bagitau benda2 simple macam tu dekat aku tapi kau expect aku akan jawab semua soalan yang kau tanya? Silap besar lagi sekali, ok?

Daaaaaaaaan tolong jangan hantar sms tanya aku dah bangun ke belum, bila bangun, dah sarapan ke belum, pegi kelas pukul berapa, balik pukul berapa, tengah buat apa tu, kelas macam mana dan sebagainya. Please, I'm not your girlfriend. Boyfriend aku sendiri pun aku takde nak buat lapor diri macam tu, what makes you think I'm gonna do that to you?

Memang kena ignore sampai bila2 la camni. Tolong pergi usha awek lain dalam kampus tu, okay? Sekian terima kasih.

I'm just a woman who knows what she wants (and doesn't want). If that made you think I'm a snob, so be it. You prolly don't deserve to know me anyway.

Lapar pulak bila marah2 camni.

Oh, so you speak English?

2011-11-30T11:39:00.002+08:00

Why, in a matter of fact, I do. I just choose not to speak English with you. This is because either I think you're just trying to show off, or, I simply feel more comfortable speaking in Malay.

Yes, I do blog in English. Well, I try most of the time.

Yes, I speak in English when I'm angry, because I feel English is a neutral language if used when you're scolding someone, or expressing your frustration. The first-person and second-person pronoun is just 'I' and 'you'. No matter the age of the person you're speaking to, you wouldn't be considered rude by saying 'you' to them. Imagine you're frustrated by someone who are older than you, and you want to vent your frustration in Malay. "Saya" would sound a tad too polite, and you don't feel like being polite at this time. "Aku" is a bit harsh, although you don't feel like being polite, you don't want to be rude, either. You just want to get your point across, not getting a slap or two by the other person. And what do you say to the other person? Awak? Kamu? Hang? Demo? Mung? Ekau?

I will end up shouting and screaming if I scold in Malay. Because emotions get in the way. And sometimes, I don't want that. English allows me to be cold, and that is exactly what I was looking for.

So, 'I' and 'you' it is. At least for me.

And yes, I do have many Malay English-speaking friends. They speak English to me, I reply in Malay. Like I've said, I feel comfortable speaking Malay with my Malay friends. I speak English with my non-Malay friends. No, I don't have semangat perkauman ke apa ke, semangat mencintai bahasa ker, apa-apa je lah. I just like speaking in Malay.

So yeah, don't you dare side-eyeing me when I reply in Malay to your English questions.

Especially when you use "that's mean" for "that means".

Seriously, I feel like bitch-slapping you.

Thank you.

Hi, can we be friends?

2011-11-26T13:49:00.003+08:00

Semenjak aku join satu website yang langsung takde kena-mengena dengan agensi mencari jodoh, banyak pulak aku dapat private message daripada lelaki yang nak berkenalan dengan aku.

Ada orang Timur Tengah, ada orang tua, ada orang kulit hitam, ada budak kecik yang perasan dah tua, dan yang paling best, aku baru dapat message tu pagi ni...

...daripada seorang perempuan. Auw! I guess I'm that attractive, huh? Hahahha gelak guling2.

Kebanyakannya siap bagi email, lepas tu bila aku tak reply, diorang hantar lagi sekali message. Wah, gigih sungguh.

Sorry, I'm not interested. This is a language-learning website, not OKCupid or something like that. Besides, what makes you think that I will reply you when you go on and on about finding love and wanting a relationship in your message? Just a simple "hi" will do.

And no, don't ask me if we can be friends right away. I'm not even sure I want to be friends when I don't even know you.

So, persoalan sekarang ni, patutkah aku reply message perempuan tu? Hahahaha!

Perfumes!

2011-11-21T16:22:00.005+08:00

Since this year, I have been crazy about perfumes. I buy miniatures and vials just to test them out. I'm very picky about my scents, though. I don't like sweet smelling frangrances (Escada's fragrance comes to mind. Salvatore Ferragamo's, too. And Britney's.), nor fruity floral (Miss Dior Cherie), nor overly floral (Estee Lauder's Pleasures Bloom) NOR too powdery (Guerlain Shalimar and Love, Chloe, anyone?).

By all means I'm not a perfume expert. I can't tell what notes that I can smell when the perfume is sprayed, like some people. In short, I don't have the qualifications to be a 'nose'. But I do know what kind of scents that I like. Perfume reviews helps, only as much as helping you to decide the perfume category (chypre, floral, fruity/floral, etc), but I find that you STILL have to test the perfume on your own. Like the old saying, "one man's junk is another man's treasure". In this case, you might read a lot of negative reviews on a certain perfume, but unless you try it for yourself, you'll never know.

Anyway. Enough rambling. Last 2 weeks I've ordered a pack of perfume sample online from a niche perfume house in France. It contains eight 2ml vials of different fragrances for a mere 9 Euros plus shipping. Steal!

And it arrived today! :D I love the packaging. Each vial is placed in a small envelope with its name stamped on the envelope seal itself (and the vial, too). I have yet to test them all, but, eeep, am so excited! Wangi la aku hari-hari macam ni. Haha.

Juliette Has a Gun. Yeah, the name is totally rock and roll.
You will also get a card with a code written that will allow you to deduct the price of this kit from your next online purchase (valid for 3 months from the sample purchase only).

Um, yeah. That is all. (Macam sial ending macam ni)

Kalau tahun lepas...

2011-11-20T17:41:00.002+08:00

...aku gi kenduri Hana kat SP, tahun ni aku gi kenduri Lindosh kat Seberang Jaya! Yeay!

Pergi pun taim dah nak habis kenduri, sah2 tetamu kat dewan tu tinggal dua tiga kerat je. Heh. Tapi merasa la aku naik stage duduk atas pelamin. ;P

As usual aku tak reti nak senyum. Hehe.

Tahniah Lindosh dan suami!

Oh hell yes!

2011-11-16T20:25:00.001+08:00

One good news. Ada hikmah gua tak jadi pegi Boston haritu.

;)

Bem ou bom? E o carro.

2011-11-12T11:44:00.004+08:00

A little conversation over Skype...
Him: my computer is good
meu computador é ____
Me: bom
Him: my darling, let´s do something today
meu ____ , vamos fazer algo hoje?
Me: bem
Him: you´re awesome
and I am a fucking excelent teacher
Me: I feel like I'm taking a quiz in livemocha. -_-;;
Him: yeah... you like my didactics?
Me: Hahahah SIM
Him: GREAT
you are a funny girl
smart and funny
and a car breaker
Me: :D

Car breaker? Yeah, I've managed to break my car door handle yesterday. Orang dok kawin sakan taim 11/11/11, aku pi bagi patah handle pintu kereta aku. Pandai pandai.

Hebak gila rasa.

(-_-;;;;;;;; )

Surprise!

2011-11-02T12:29:00.001+08:00

"Are you in the office?" he asked.
"Yeah. Why?"
"Keluaq. Aku kat bawah sekarang."
"Look at you and your swagger," he said, grinning like a fool when he saw me walking towards him.
"Whaaat. Mana ada." And so we chatted for a good one hour.

Thanks for making my day by paying me a surprise visit, Lucas. I can *almost* forgive you for the helmet incident. Teehee.

Nanti hang dah kerja kat hospital who will surprise me again by standing at a spot and watch me eat at the cafe without my knowledge and paying me an unexpected visit again?

Fool.

:)

Whee!

2011-10-28T17:13:00.003+08:00

New pair of glasses. Now I can blend in with the rest of the hipster world (I couldn't stop saying the word 'hipster' since donning this pair of glasses). I will look like every other person. Way to go, ayaq.

Photo by cik awa yang comel lepas tu rajin edit pulak tu. As usual, aku tak kuasa la nak camwhore.

You've Got Mail.

2011-10-24T16:11:00.002+08:00

*klik*

*baca*

It's enough to make me smile the whole day.

:)

Ngeee.

2011-10-19T19:18:00.003+08:00

"Que bonitinha você falando português," katanya.

"Além de gostosa, você é inteligente," katanya lagi.

Gua hanya mampu berjoget-joget depan komputer.

Eh, lupa pulak nak ucap terima kasih kat dia.

Heh. Buruk betul perangai.

Ngee.

Deer and Squirrel

2011-10-15T20:53:00.003+08:00

Him: You look a bit surprised in that picture. There's a saying in German for that.
Me: What is it?
Him: Du siehst aus wie ein frisch geficktes Eichhörnchen.
Me: *gelak guling2*

Deer in headlight = ein frisch geficktes Eichhörnchen = freshly fucked squirrel.

This is one of the reasons I love being a translator. Comparing languages never ceases to amuse me!

The Makeover!

2011-10-14T23:23:00.005+08:00

Today I was kidnapped by a friend of mine to a makeover event at The Body Shop in Gurney Plaza. This was my first time of going such event. Excited dan peghak nak mampuih la kan aku. But I played it cool sajer eceh.

There were refreshments in the form of iced lemon tea and some cakes served courtesy by Secret Recipe. I didn't had their cakes as I have melantak-ed a plate of fetuccine with mushroom and olive oil half an hour before the event started akibat kelaparan melampau.

No pictures of the event taken because I am not a camera whore who whips out camera at any moment given. Sangat pemalas ye mau tangkap gambar.

After the makeover we had a little quick photoshoot and we got our own picture printed! Merasa la glamour sekejap.

Oh! And we received a goodie bag, too. Barang free saya suka (who doesn't?!). I also bought a mini hand cream from the Wild Rose collection. The rose smell is divine! Unlike Crabtree & Evelyn's rose range which to me smells like an old lady's rose.

I love the makeover I received! However, I was a bit self-conscious after walking out from the store sebab terasa mekap tebal gila haha man repellant betul okay this kind of makeup. Pastu balik rumah camwhore hihih.

Sekian saja cerita makeover saya. Terima lah gambar2 berikut muahaha.

Contents of the goodie bag. Perfume vial, eye makeup remover and an eyeshadow.
Before the makeover!
After the makeover. Semput nak cuci maskara. Maskara ke simen entah keras gila.

I was complimented by two lovely English ladies while queuing for registration. They said they love the colour of my hijab and that it looked good against my skintone. Nyehnyehnyeh. Kembang semangkuk aku. :D

Das ist alles. Gute Wochenende, Jedermann!

:)

2011-10-13T21:40:00.001+08:00

"I can't wait to see you again!"

Adalah antara kata-katanya dalam emel.

And it has made my day.

:)

Real

2011-10-12T18:35:00.003+08:00

It's not that I don't trust you.

It's just that when I do tell, it all suddenly become real.

That the problem is legit.

That my fear is true.

That whatever it is I'm going through is not a lie.

Sometimes I just want to swallow and forget.

But one can only hold on for so long.

Dressing

2011-10-10T17:09:00.002+08:00

Student-student kat unibersiti aku ni.

Nak pergi kelas ker, nak gi kenduri kawin/clubbing?

Meletup dressing baju kurungnya/baju yang dia pakai tu lah.

Tapi ada sesetengah yang serabai tu, serabai habis.

I still stand by my principles that:
a) Sliper jamban hanya untuk ke jamban, bukan bawak pegi kelas.
b) Seluar track hanya untuk bersenam atau tido, bukan bawak pegi kelas.

Overdressed ker, underdressed ker, asalkan nampak semenggah sikit, ok la.

Awak tu kat tempat untuk menuntut ilmu, cuba hormat sikit tempat ilmu tu?

Eh.

2011-10-09T17:57:00.003+08:00

12 years of not talking to you ended today.

How was it?

Fucking awkward, I'd say.

I'm still trying to process it.

Trying, is the keyword.

To be honest I don't even wanna try at all.

Awkward, awkward.

It's all very "eh" to me.

An elephant never forgets.

And I'm an elephant.

Whoaaaaaaaaa

2011-10-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

Dah bertunang rupanya!

Fie, congratulations to you and your fiancee (yang rajin benor datang blog gue teehee).

Semoga sampai ke jinjang pelamin pastu bila dah menjinjangpelaminkan diri semoga bahagia sampai ke anak cucu.

:)

The Top Knot

2011-09-29T16:01:00.002+08:00

Apparently the 'in' hairstyle right now is the top knot. You know, the ballerina knot, except it is on top of your head rather than the back.

Tak faham lagi?

Alah, sanggul orang dalam pantang.

Yeah.

Fashion people say it is chic! It is trendy! It is modern!

What I say?

Tepek jer jamu kat dahi tu, lengkaplah rupa orang dalam pantang.

Create your own style, don't be a fashion victim.

This. Made me laugh.

2011-09-26T14:02:00.004+08:00

*while watching Metallica live in Rio and chatting through Skype at the same time*

"nothing else matthers," katanya.
":D," balas aku.
"awedsoime"
"Are you drunk?"
"typing with ione`hand"
"This is the part where I'm raising one eyebrow."
"Why are you typing with one hand?"
"singing with the other"
"Are you sure?"
"yeahhhh"
"...Ok."

Aku boleh bayangkan dia dok nyanyi Nothing Else Matters dengan penuh semangat. Haha.

But hell yeaaaaaa Metallica RockInRio was awesome! *dances*

Tak tanya pun?

2011-09-22T10:21:00.004+08:00

You know that moment, when you were telling someone enthusiastically, something you thought was interesting, just to keep the conversation going and then some asshole went, "tak tanya ponnnnnnnnn?"

And you know right on that exact moment, you feel like slamming the chair to their face.

Yeah. Don't do that. Saying "tak tanya pun?" with a smug face. Chair-slamming, that, I encourage.

I kid.

Partly.

:)

Shawl!

2011-09-19T17:32:00.002+08:00

Gotta put this picture because I like this picture and the colour of the shawl is oh so pretty! And because this is my blog. And I don't camwhore that much. Ok ayaq diam sekarang.
Sila abaikan katil bersepah di belakang. Yang merah tu shawl jugak teehee. :P

How old are you?

2011-09-16T10:29:00.001+08:00

"Are you really 24?"

Tanya seseorang kat aku.

"Yes!"

Lepas tu aku pakai spek.

"Do I look 24 now?"
"Yes."

Bukak spek.

"18."

Haha! Takyah pakai spek ah camni. ;)

According to someone...

2011-09-11T14:41:00.002+08:00

...I am apparently:
Innocent but naughty
Submissive but dominant
Shy but in control
Modern but traditional
Modest but I know I drive men crazy
Silly but serious

Interesting.

No wonder I can never describe myself in a few words. Teehee.

:)

It's my birthday, yo.

2011-09-07T19:44:00.002+08:00

I turned eighteen today!

*muka serius*

Betul, 18, percayelah.

Thank you, pocket, for the pizza.

And Lucas, for the ice cream and drinks.

And everyone who wished on facebook and sms.

And God for memanjangkan umur.

Hadiah?

I'm still waiting for the book someone ordered for me (thank you, bad boy :D) to arrive.

Um, that's it. No birthday cakes, because I don't like cakes. (Yang sebenarnye takde sapa nak belikan aku kek wuwww sadis haha)

Gua baru 18 tahun, yo! *kembang idong*

Most of the compliments I got...

2011-09-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

...lately were:
1) Amboi...stylo... - makcik
2) Glamour lah kau~ - kawan
3) Boleh jadi model~! (malew I hewhewhewhew) - makcik lagi sorang
4) I like seeing the way you dress - kawan merangkap akak hot hihi.

Kekadang terasa jugak aku ni overdressed ke apa orang cakap-cakap macam ni, I shy shy cat jadinya. :P

But I've just learnt how to dress better...and also how to work that damn shawl. Patut la ramai perempuan suka pakai shawl, memang senang rupanya. Ketinggalan bullet train betul aku ni heh.

But yeah, my confidence level has sky-rocketed since knowing how to dress for my body.

Well, a few other things also helped my confidence level, but let that be my secret. ;)

Sekian entry syok sendiri.

*walks away in stilettos*

*terpeleot* <-aku masih agak fail dalam bab pakai kasut tinggi hahah.

Raya uolssss

2011-08-29T21:24:00.001+08:00

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

Maaf zahir batin.

Selamat balik kampung.

Selamat makan kuih.

Selamat dapat duit raya.

Selamat main bunga api.

Semualah.

2 minggu

2011-08-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

2 minggu lagi sebelum raya. Cepatnya!!! (Tapi tak sabaq nak raya heheh)

Baju raya dah ada ker? Aku dah ada... Tapi dah besor2 cenggini makin lama makin malas pulak nak pikior pasal baju raya. Pakai jer yang mana jarang2 pakai tu, hihihi.

Kuih raya? Rumah ni tak jalan sangat kuih raya... Paling best pun, cornflake madu. Itu pun aku sorang yang dok perabih. Heh.

Sekian cerita pasal nak raya.

Rindu. Lambatnya minggu depan!

Someone

2011-08-06T12:18:00.003+08:00

Lately I find myself itching more and more to have someone to come home to after a long day out of the house.

Not just parents, or even friends.

But someone.

A stranger, whom God has made to be my soulmate. Whoever the person is.

But right now all I want is you, caro mio. :)

Annick Goutal Quel Amour!

2011-07-31T17:09:00.002+08:00

To me it smells like Turkish Delight, which I hate.

But wearing this perfume makes me think twice about it...

Sorry.

2011-07-26T17:08:00.002+08:00

The thought of losing you scares me.

Sorry, darl.

Minggu depan dah start puasa! Selamat menyambut Ramadan Al-Mubarak. Posa jangan tak posa!

2011-07-17T16:42:00.002+08:00

Time does not matter.

Many attract me, yet only one stirs my heart.

One month or one year, I have loved you all the same.

Time does not matter.

Hello again, love. I have missed you.

So.

2011-07-01T19:20:00.002+08:00

Supposedly, tomorrow night at 9PM, I will be on flight en route to Boston for a conference. FOR ONE WEEK.

But.

Last week my father was admitted into the hospital for pneumonia. The doctors also suspected he had dengue fever but the test was negative. But, still he was admitted into the dengue ward.

Judging from his condition during that time, I made the decision to cancel my plan. Besides, I still won't be happy if I go anyway if he's still in the hospital. It's okay, I'll have another opportunity.

My father was discharged last Wednesday and Alhamdulillah, he's getting better.

For one whole week he was in the hospital, I felt nothing about cancelling my plan. But now that he's out, huwaaaaaaaaaaaa nak pergi Bostonnnnnnnnnnnn! Sobsobsob.

Tapi kalau pergi jugak takde sapa nak jadi driver bawak bapak aku gi hospital untuk further checkup minggu depan ni. Iskkkk sabor ayaq sabor.

Mesti ada hikmah di sebalik ni. Lagi pun, aku tak prepare apa-apa nak bentang paper tuuu ahahahahah. <-ayat sedapkan hati

Haih, carik conference lain la pulak lepas ni.

Tapi yang Boston punya tu memang penting untuk aku... Aku guna teori one of the scholars in that conference kottttt waaaaaaaa. Next year kat Poland. Memang tak la aku nak pi Poland sensorang kan...

Arggggggggh

2011-06-08T13:04:00.003+08:00

The thought of 20-hour flight akhasfkljhdferklhf.

I think someone is blowing me off. MIA lama gila apa kes. Dah la emel pun tak reply. Hidop lagi ke awak ni bang?

I'm in a perfume-craze phase right now. Nasib baikkkkk miniatures je kalau full sized rabak poket. Sekarang pun dah rabak ah ah ah.

Mood menulis tak sampai-sampai. Hoi sedar diri sikit awak tu ada 3 sem je lagi sebelum nak grad. Nak grad ker tanak ayaqqqqq??!

Managed to meet Claire, a friend of mine when I was in Japan in 2008. Sigh. I miss her and Japan. Heh heh heh.

Kema dah balik rumah. For good. Mel pulak insyaallah harini lulus vivanya. Teja bulan 9 kang baru datang balik Penang. Waaaaaaaa aku keseorangan kat siniiiiiiiii sobsob. Ni yang nak lari jauh-jauh ni. Lo voglio andare in Italia!

I is sakit perut. T_T

Phew

2011-05-21T22:15:00.006+08:00

Life has finally slowed down a bit.

Things went well lately. Thesis proposal got approved (couple of weeks macam orang gila after almost 8 months of procrastination finally paid off). Visa got approved. Grant got approved. Hopefully more good things will come.

Semester break until September. However, no break for research students like us.

Will be out of country on July for a few days. Excited, but terrified at the same time. :S

KL next week!

Fun fun fun fun. (Okay tipu. Aku tak suka KL. Tapi KL with friends is fun.)

Culture differences

2011-05-09T19:07:00.002+08:00

I like this. A lot. Kudos for the photographer. Yang sebelah kanan tu sah-sah orang Malaysia, hehe.

Picture taken from Samantha Thalia's facebook album. Whoever she is. :)

Nostalgic

2011-05-01T20:59:00.003+08:00

Bila tengok gambar ni feeling tahun 90an pulak, padahal tahun 2011.

Semua tersengih riang sebab nak pi makan froyo.

Kami pasal bab makan memang sokmo tersengih riang.

Courtesy of Teja's lomo.

The Royal Wedding

2011-04-29T21:30:00.004+08:00

Sigh. Sigh sigh sigh and sigh.

Beautiful.

Can I have the McQueen's gown, please?

And the kiss on the Buckingham Palace balcony - twice!
Pictures from here and here.

Rant

2011-04-20T18:43:00.004+08:00

Harini...aku tatau la apasal pengguna jalan raya kat Penang macam shilake.

Yang bawak kereta selo nak mampus duduk kat lane kanan satu.

Yang bodoh keluaq simpang padahal sah2 dah nampak keta aku nak lalu tu satu.

Yang bawak moto kira nak mencelah ja tu lagi satu.

Semua ni takpa lagi aku boleh sabaq.

Yang last ni memang aku rasa memang nak bagi penampar sorang sedas.

Ada dua orang perempuan. Dah kawin, memasing ada anak. Anak pulak dalam umur 3, 4 tahun. Tunggu tepi jalan nak lintas. Keta aku nak lalu, tapi agak selo la (for my standard it's slow), tapi still kalau apa2 nak jadi aku brek rasanya macam sipi-sipi sempat kot. Lepas tu, dua-dua orang ni berterabur lari lintas jalan sambil masing-masing tarik tangan anak diorang.

Yang layak dibagi penampar tu, diorang tunggu kat lintasan zebra. Sah-sah dah ada traffic light kat situ. Tak reti nak tekan ka? Ni tak, malas nak tunggu lampu merah punya pasal, sanggup berlari2 tarik tangan anak macam dah nak tercabut lengan budak tu aku tengok. Tu nasib baik budak tu tak terjatuh ka apa. Kalau jatuh tetengah jalan tu?

Lu nak masuk hospital gua tade hal nak tolong. Tapi gua tanak anak lu pun masuk hospital sekali.

She-bye.

Fave

2011-04-19T23:38:00.001+08:00

Prolly my most favourite picture of me so far this year.

2011-04-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

Dear that Aaron Aziz lookalike who wears a white tee and bermuda shorts, pushing a trolley full of I-dunno-what at Qbay Mall Old Town and ended up sleeping at your seat while waiting for your friend.

I hope one day we'll meet again.

Sincerely,
Me who is in a baju kurung and couldn't stop checking you out. (I hope you didn't notice that. Teehee.)

3rd year farewell party

2011-04-07T11:01:00.001+08:00

Yesterday morning I was invited to my juniors' farewell party, since they are in their 3rd and final year. I was their tutor for interpreting classes for 3 semesters. All in all, I'm glad to get to know them and I wish them all the best in life!

Makan free haruslah aku seronok kan.

Back to work. Zzz.

Pictures are from my facebook, taken by various cameras. Thanks for the tagging, guys!

April

2011-04-01T21:54:00.003+08:00

Whoa it's April already? Time flies.

Gotta finish a few things by the end of this month. fffffffffffffuuuuuuuu.

Some of my friends have graduated last 2 weeks. Congratulations to them. Aku ni bile pulak la turn nak grad hoi.

Friday is (almost) officially declared as "lunch with BATIan friends" day. Today was fun. Food was good. Although the waiter buang makanan aku when we clearly said to TAPAU. Hampeh. Nasib baik tak tinggal banyak. Rugi je.

Someone finally came back with an explanation after getting his ass kicked. Bless his new girlfriend. Welcome back, Scruffy. You know I've missed you, right?

April 15th! Mintak2 la dapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. Aminnnnnnnnn.

Officially will be bergajiless from May to September. Anyone wants to give me a part-time job with a good pay? (Current pay, RM900 for minimum 6 hours work per week. RM900 for one month, bukan seminggu sembilan ratus. Kalau dapat gaji macam tu aku pencen je belajar ni.)

Is waiting for my first (!!) Nuffnang cheque (yang ciput setelah 2 tahun peram. Takpa lah, duit jugak. Sapa nak bagi duit free oyyy), a pay from a friend, and also a pay from a translation job I did last year, yang ni lambat lagi lah kot nak dapat.

Is really thinking of going to UCLA. Hmm.

Hmm

2011-03-27T12:13:00.002+08:00

Unwell.

Head cold.

In a daze.

Jaded.

Not to mention am currently confused as to why that certain someone won't talk to me! Are we not talking anymore? Forever? And ever? Where's my handsome man and what did you do to him, hmm?

Tired.

Someone kick my ass, please!

The Fickle One

2011-03-18T18:30:00.004+08:00

My eyes went away from me
Following a dark girl who went by.

She was made of black motherofpearl
Made of darkpurple grapes,
And she lashed my blood
With her tail of fire.

After them all I go.

A pale blonde went by
Like a golden plant
Swaying her gifts.
And my mouth went
Like a wave
Discharging on her breast
Lightningbolts of blood.

After them all I go.

But to you, without my moving,
Without seeing you, distant you,
Go my blood and my kisses,
My dark one and my fair one,
My broad one and my slender one,
My ugly one, my beauty,
Made of all the gold
And of all the silver,
Made of all the wheat
And of all the earth,
Made of all the water
Of sea waves,
Made for my arms
Made for my kisses,
Made for my soul.
*****************************************

I was introduced to this beautiful poem many months ago by Scruffy. And he, being the awesome man he is, explained to me the meaning of this poem, because I, for the life of me, suck at interpreting poems. I still do.

It's by Pablo Neruda, by the way.

I just thought of posting it here because I was listening to Yasmin Ahmad's TEDxKL talk and she mentioned Neruda.

And I also miss the awesome man who actually made the poem above make sense to me. Because I'm an idiot liddat.

Mkay. That's all.

Before hitting the 'Publish Post' button, I realised I actually wrote "The ickle One". Haih. I just remembered I haven't read ickle and Lardee for a while.

Rant

2011-03-16T10:18:00.003+08:00

These past few weeks, I feel like I've been talking to a wall.

And then I had people criticising the work I'm doing when they do not know shit about it, just because they don't want me to do something, that I feel essential for my work. Who are you to say that the things I need to do are not important? And then they had to attack someone close to me, someone who's been guiding me all along.

Typical of people, isn't it? When you don't have anymore points to defend your reasoning, you go about attacking everything around it, hoping that one or two bullets will hit.

And guess what? It did hit. It hurts deeply. You've definitely crossed the line. You can say anything you want about my work, but don't you dare go and attacking the person who's been helping me. The person who's always been there for me these 4, 5 years, who has passion to spread knowledge and wanting me to be better. Don't you fucking do that.

No wonder I cannot stand on my own two feet.
No wonder I'm still the way I am 5 years ago.

I appreciate your concern(s), but stay the fuck off because this is what I need to do. It's my mistakes to make. You think I won't suffer if I made mistakes? I will suffer more than all of you. But it is MY mistakes to make. It is MY lessons to learn.

And then you, the wall I've been talking to these past few weeks,

I.miss.you.

I wish you were here to talk to.

Go, went, gone.

2011-03-09T08:51:00.002+08:00

Love,

Where have you been? I miss you.

p/s: I wonder if you have seen a doctor already. Kiss.

Emcee

2011-03-07T20:31:00.007+08:00

Last Saturday I became an emcee for a postgraduate seminar in my faculty.

It's so weird calling it faculty. In my uni we call faculty as school. :)

Anyhoo. It was a not-so last minute decision, choosing me as an emcee. I just think they didn't have anyone else willing to be one. Hehe.

I have been an emcee once before...I think. I really don't remember. Oh yeah! I've been one during Nanzan 08 and 09 programme. Hahahahaha. But that was in Japanese. No wonder I didn't remember. :B

This time I was required to do it in English. Bila aku nak buat dalam BM woih. Ker aku dah pernah buat? Tak ingat... Me, being the lazy bum I am, typed out the whole script the night before. Okay I did want to write it earlier but then I was not briefed on who should I address, who's the speaker, etc (excuses, excuses. Boleh call tanya kan? Tampo kang).

The seminar was from 9 to 5. So I was working from 9 to 5, what a way to make a livin', barely gettin' by...

Ahem.

All in all it went well. I think. No one complained, the ex-president of the postgrad club gave me a thumbs up after it all ended, and the Deputy Dean even congratulated the whole team for organising the seminar. Phew!

What I've learned from this are:
1) You need to make sure of the programme, what starts first, who's the speaker, etc. If you can, talk to them before the whole thing starts.
2) You are the emcee, and thus you have the power to control the situation. In fact, you should control the situation. You can interrupt anyone who's taking their own sweet time to make their point across (and wasting the time allocated!). You also need to take the initiative to remind the speaker of their time limit. Give a small note to them if their time is nearly up, say, 15 minutes before.
3) Please, PLEASE do your homework on how to pronounce things. I've made the mistake of pronouncing Reading University as 'reading' (wrong) and not 'redding' (correct) and also misread BruneL University as BruneI University. Pfft. Memalukan.
4) Don't panic if anything goes wrong. Be calm and keep a straight face.
5) Lastly, don't forget to apologise for the mistakes done throughout the programme on behalf of the organiser and yourself.

I think that is all. Cheerio!

Nampak jer tenang tapi di hati siapa yang tahu. Ewah! Dah la aku terasa macam aku cakap English with fake accent je bahahaha. The lady in the red/coral/honeysuckle saree is Dr. Lalita Sinha.

Ain't this pretty?

2011-03-06T15:52:00.003+08:00

Elianto Luminous eyeshadow in Sapphire Blue. I love the gorgeous print on the shadow itself!

Craving for...

2011-03-02T22:36:00.002+08:00

...a new pair of shoes in a colour other than black.

...croissant. Okay actually I've bought it earlier but didn't eat it yet. With jam!

...Nutella.

...Scruffy. When are we going to play online games again? Or riddles. (:

...a getaway. (Kerja pun tak buat ada hati nak getaway. Ptui. <-kata2 hati.)

...a new perfume. Since, the perfume I ordered online tak sampai2. Dah dekat 6 bulan dah. Tak sampai terus ah tu. Rugi duit gua.

...a new iPod Touch. A 64-gig, iPod Touch 4, please.

I want to travel. I want I want I want.

Post-it

2011-02-27T21:30:00.002+08:00

My wall currently is filled with post-its. I love those sticky notes.

When I was in matriculation one side of my cupboard is full with post-its containing Physics, Chemistry and Math formulas (yeah, I was a science student. Shocked much?).

The only post-it notes I'll buy is the one with the brand Post-it by 3M. Those are the only ones that sticks well. I mean business when it comes to post-it. Heh. (Sekarang tengah pakai cap Tesco...tak best!)

Okay end of entry confessing my love for post-its.

You can go now.

Fort Cornwallis

2011-02-23T17:56:00.007+08:00

A short entry. Full of pictures (of me. Jangan muntah lak. Aku pun geli letak entry penuh muka aku jer).

Yesterday while waiting for the passport at the immigration office, Kema and I walked to Fort Cornwallis to kill time (more like, lintas jalan jer, FC tu seberang jalan imigresen kot!).

I have lived in Penang for 23 years. 24, come September (huaaa~). But never ever have I stepped foot in FC. Selalu tu aku lalu padang kota aku tengok je meriam2 tu. Akhirnya aku masuk jugak! Booyah.

So yeah. Pictures. Ticket price = RM 2, locals or foreigners.

Abang Francis Light, yo.

It's very...empty. Ye lah, it's a fort. Whaddya expect? Ferris wheel and roller coaster?

Ok dah sekian.

Hoo-hah!

2011-02-22T19:24:00.003+08:00

Started the day right. Glad to see your face again, handsome. p/s: you need a haircut. :)

Being a tourist in your own town.

Getting lost in your own town. <- ayaq's trademark. Sesat sokmo di negeri sendiri.

Knowing where the hell is Anson Road after getting lost.

Seeing a tree full of (Malaysian) sakura. You can't even see the leaves!

Getting hit on (with Kema) by so many guys. On the bike, in the car, tengah tunggu traffic light, etc. Terasa gedik (dan bajet hot) sebentar.

Looking at so many mat saleh hensem di Tanjung. Alone, with a friend, with a girlfriend. ;D

Driving in the rain. <3

Being treated for lunch. Thanks Kema.

Tired, but happy.

Happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Ok lapar.

Now, now

2011-02-19T11:28:00.001+08:00

A corset.

Where would I wear it to?

Stray

2011-02-18T13:23:00.002+08:00

How the heck did I came into the mall wanting to buy a comic book and end up buying a pair of boxers instead?

Simple.

I'm a woman.

:)

Kick.

2011-02-16T19:04:00.003+08:00

Dear Scruffy,

You forgot to do the logical ass-kicking for me the other day. We need to do that as soon as you come back home. My logical thinking is seriously messed up.

But I still think that language is unavoidably intertwined with culture.

Oh, sorry. Untertwined. ;)

Till then. Kiss!

I need to read Waiting for Godot. Hnggh.

V-Day

2011-02-14T17:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day. Happy lose-your-Virginity Day. Happy Vreak-up Day (ade ker orang brekap taim Valentine?). Whatever it is, keep it fun and safe. SAFE, people.

But do you really need one day in a year to show your love? Hari-hari pun boleh kot. Hari-hari pun Valentine. Eceh.

Happy V-Day, Scruffy. Although you'll only celebrate it tomorrow. Sucks having a girl from the future in your life, innit? ;)

Esok Maulud Nabi oy! Jangan lupa pulak. Phewittt!

Tanti auguri a te...

2011-02-10T19:41:00.003+08:00

...Signor ADT!

Cento di questi giorni e tanti abbracci e baci. :D

Since you're too far away for me to give you a present, I'll just do a "birthday wishes" video, okay?

If, I remember to do it. :P

Sekian cakap sorang-sorang.

Hospital

2011-02-08T13:14:00.004+08:00

Tadi pergi hospital, bahagian pergigian. Pasal jaw lock aku ni la, dah masuk 4 hari tak boleh bukak mulut ni apa kes. (Scruffy, you were right, it does get worse. Your 200K USD education is not down the drain after all, haha.)

Pergi, daftar, sejam lebih tunggu baru dia panggil masuk. Check sikit, pergi bawah untuk X-Ray, naik atas balik, cakap2 sikit. Last-last dia suruh aku tuam je dulu rahang aku ni! Dua minggu nanti datang balik.

Nasib baik mamat receptionist tu cute.
Nasib baik akak doktor gigi tu lawak nak mampus.
Nasib baik universiti aku yang tanggung semua.
Nasib baik ade iPod aku.

I hate hospitals! :)

:D

2011-02-06T09:28:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to my handsome man, Scruffy! I hope you'll have a good and prosperous year, live a long life and be happy - so that you can teach me more Shakespeare and Neruda. ;) High five!

Love you. Kiss!

Jaw Lock

2011-02-05T18:20:00.003+08:00

OMG my lockjaw is getting worse. Today I could not open my mouth at all! Even the toothbrush wouldn't go in easily.

This has always happened every morning when I wake up for the past one year, but this is actually the first time I couldn't open my mouth for nearly a whole day. :( I really need to see a doctor (orthodontist, maybe?).

I can only eat soft food for now. Waaaaaaaa nak makan lamb choppppppp.

Post-Bachelor's Disorder

2011-02-03T09:44:00.002+08:00

Yeah.

:)

2011-01-30T12:11:00.003+08:00

Congratulations to Shananana and Abi! Thanks for inviting me to your wedding. Semoga berbahagia sampai bila-bila.

Busy

2011-01-26T14:15:00.003+08:00

I'm busy running (driving) around everywhere. Tsk.

Takottt brr brr

2011-01-23T22:39:00.003+08:00

Eh bunyik macam sejuk je. Lantak.

Aku nak tanya ni. Untuk orang yang berkapel. Berkapel ye bukan berkahwin. Tambah2 lagiiiiiiiii orang yang kapel dah lama gilaaaaaaaaaaa. (Lama gila = 2/3 tahun ke atas?)

Untuk yang perempuan. Adakah korang naik gila kalau bf korang pegi keluar dengan kawan dia yang merupakan seorang perempuan? Macam, kuar lepak. Lepak je ponnnnnn. Pastu pulak, kawan je ponnnnnnn. Kawan masa sekolah dulu kottttt. Camtu.

Untuk yang lelaki. Adakah gefren korang merupakan spesis di atas?

Untuk aku. Eh. Secara peribadi (udah2 le tu guna 'secara peribadi' untuk terjemahan 'personally'. Ape jadahnya secara peribadi woih! Personally = bagi saya/pada pendapat saya), aku rasa aku boleh rilek kot kalau bf aku gi kuar lepak dengan kawan2 perempuan dia. Sebab aku pun lepak dengan kawan2 lelaki aku hahahahahhahahahahaha. (Ni tengah takde bf ni boleh la aku cakap camni, ntah2 nanti kot aku dah ada bf aku pun menjadi spesis yang serupa.)

Sampai mak aku marah, "Hang ni asyik lepak dengan boyfren orang ja."

Abih tu dah semuanya dah ada gefren, takat nak putus kawan pulak kot? Selamba.

Aku mempunyai perasaan takleh blah kalau gefren paranoid macam tu, pastu aktiviti perlepakkan (perkataan baru beb. tanak masuk kamus ke??) kitorang terpaksa dirahsiakan. Aku kalau benda2 rahsia ni kalau yang innocent pun boleh nampak macam tak berapa nak innocent sebab kalau innocent apasal pulak nak rahsia2 kan?

Sekian. Sebab baru tadi kena warning dengan kawan aku jangan tag dia dalam fesbuk tentang perlepakkan kitorang tadi (takut gefren marah ah tu macam aku tatau). Haha. :P

見て見て！

2011-01-18T12:15:00.003+08:00

ドラエモン貰った！日本から。買ってくれて有難う Kazet! 今から研究頑張ってる！
マジ嬉しい。クレヨンしんちゃんも欲しい。おねがいね。　：）

ワアイー！

Jeans

2011-01-17T18:48:00.005+08:00

This month, I have altogether 10 pairs of jeans altered.

As much as I love men's jeans (I have been wearing/buying men's jeans since forever. Not forgetting I also wear my brothers' jeans, too), let's face it, it's time to get it fitted. Wide legs and crotch down your knees is not a good look. Screw boyfriend jeans. I'm all for tailored and fitted pants now. :P

I am in love with abang jeans Sungai Dua because he alters the jeans beautifully. And cheap, too. Thank you Terabeng and Kema for introducing me to his shop. Hihi.

My mom always tells me to just go buy a new pair of jeans, why get it altered? It's expensive!!!

Well, a normal priced pair of jeans costs around RM 110. I get TEN brand new old jeans (oxymoron heyhey!) for the same price. Holla!

Abang jeans even managed to salvage 2 pairs of hideous carrot cut jeans and turned it into a straight cut. Thanks to him, I can finally wear those jeans. (Mom bought it 10 years ago, I hated it, never wore it until now. Those two pairs were only RM18. Kat mana mak aku beli aku pun tatau. Sungguh terer mak aku mencari bargain.)

I have 17 pairs of jeans in my closet. One can never have too many pair of jeans. ;)

Kedai abang jeans Sungai Dua: Sebelah Seong optometrist, satu row dengan KFC dan Avon.
Scruffy said my English has been slipping for a couple months now. Oh nooooooooooes. :(

What is...

2011-01-12T17:50:00.002+08:00

Today a friend of mine asked me to fill in a survey for her.

The survey only has one question (other than the intro; age, location yadayada), but it took me awhile to answer it. The question is simple:

WHAT IS 'EDUCATION' TO YOU?

Honestly, I don't like these kind of question, because I don't have any clever (or meaningful/deep) answer for it. This, my friends, is the reason why I could not be a debater/public speaker/pemidato. Hahahaha.

Now, what IS education to YOU guys?

Sigh

2011-01-10T12:24:00.002+08:00

Banyak gila mengeluh kan? Berapa juta urat dah putus ni. :S

Tak larat nak tunggu dah la...

Tunggu orang online.

Tunggu barang2 yang aku order sampai.

Tunggu jawapan GA.

Semua tak dapat lagi. Apa kes?

Bulan Julai bulan conference. Kalau rasa nak pegi obersi tu sile la siapkan paperwork anda yer cik ayaq! Cakap banyak tara guna. I go first. (Haha gila literal translation.)

I miss...

2011-01-06T11:36:00.001+08:00

I miss you trying to explain Shakespeare and Neruda to me.

I miss you.

Ngaku chips!

2011-01-02T18:39:00.008+08:00

A few days ago I read on chicsinred's blog about ngaku (aka arrowhead) chips. I was like, oh sounds delicious *forgets about it*.

Then yesterday my brother and his wife told us about them eating it. And my bro was like "sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap".

Okay now I'm intrigued. Of course, being me, when I'm excited about something, I cannot wait! Penantian suatu penyeksaan ok! So this morning my parents went to Tesco and bought ngaku. Hahaha!

This is how it looks like:
Stolen from kak Chics' blog, because my mom has peeled it before I knew there was ngaku in the house!

Peeled ngaku

I was planning to make a step by step entry, tapikan, tau tau je ngaku dah kena goreng. Haha. You can see the step by step process at Chics' blog. Only the difference is that my mom didn't dry it out. She just sliced it and went straight to the pan.

Wazzupppppp ngaku chips?

Very krupkrapkrupkrap (this, is the onomatopoeia for crunchy in Malay haha) ok! Yummy. :D

Happy 2011

2010-12-31T22:26:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2010! Hi 2011. May you bring more good things this year. Teehee.

I'm gonna list one good thing happened for each month in 2010. Why think about bad things when you have good things all around? :D

January - Being a tutor for one of the subjects I USED TO LEARN DURING UNDERGRAD. Hahaha. Geli doh.
February - Got a random but cool general knowledge from the Japanese. Hahaha.
March - Putrajaya Hot Air Balloon festival. And the first time I hopped on an express bus evahhh!
April - Family gathering. Like, big ass family gathering. And I met Bendul. Smell smell bacang ok kitorang? Hahahha.
May - Chatting with an Imperial Stormtrooper on chatroulette. Bahaha.
June - World Cup. Booyah!
July - Spain won World Cup and went to Universiti Malaya for the first time evahhhh. I love their library.
August - Ramadhan is always a good thing, no? :) [And also the month I get to know Scruffy. :)]
September - Finding an ol' skool photo of my dad and his siblings. Skinny tie was 'in' ya'll.
October - My parents went for Hajj.
November - Stayed alone in the house for the longest time evahhhhh.
December - Parents came back, meeting Hana, Kema and Atira finished their MA, and Malaysia won the AFF Suzuki Cup against Indonesia.

So, yeah, happy 2011!

Congratulations (Part 2)...

2010-12-30T11:24:00.006+08:00

...to Malaysia for winning the AFF Suzuki Cup. 4-2 aggregate! w00t w00t. Damn how I miss World Cup now...

And also to my friend Shanaz aka Shanu aka Shanana aka Jesika Elba for getting married this January! I can't wait for the invitation card (Or e-vite. Haha). Abi is one lucky man. ;) Ben mutluyum!

2010 is ending soon. Time flies, huh? 2010 is full of...new people, and changes. Drastic ones, not so drastic ones, what was I thinking ones. I have also committed two of the Seven Deadly Sins. Not to say I regret doing it, but it's more like, WHY did I do it. And certainly got me thinking, oh bloody hell.

Hmm.

I'm still learning from mistakes. Unintended and intended.

Lust. Mmm, lusty indeed. ;) [Random, but I am right now, err nevermind.]

Kema, thank you for the Ritter Sport! Nyum3.
And also Kak Nurul for pizza!

I just wanna wish...

2010-12-25T07:08:00.002+08:00

...Merry Christmas to anyone who celebrates this festivity! Hope you have a blast. :)

Especially to you, handsome. See you when you're back.

Congratulations...

2010-12-19T20:21:00.002+08:00

...to two of my wacky friends, Kema and Tyrabeng for finishing their MA degree. One in Translation and the other in MassComm.

I officially hate you both. :)

As for yours truly, she doesn't actually know when she can finish her MA, so stop asking.

Back to ~~Castlemarathon~~work.

What I'm looking for...

2010-12-16T10:51:00.003+08:00

Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection. Bak kata puan Katy Brand. :B

Okay so I've never had a taste of perfection, only close (perfect is boring lah). But it's enough for me to make it as a benchmark to compare to, well, everyone. By everyone, I mean, every guy. Scratch that. Man.

I have found me a man who changes me. Looking back, I've never thought that I would be this way. In what way have I changed? That, I can't tell you. Is it a positive one or a negative one? Could be positive, could be negative, I say. Depends on where you live.

What I like most about this man is that we can talk about anything and everything. We argue, we tease, we laugh, we banter. He makes me feel alive. Emotionally, spiritually and all other -llys you can think of. Oh yes, even that -lly. :)

Too bad he's not (and maybe never will be) mine. Too bad he's a million miles away.

Too bad I'm starting to fall for him.

But I'm glad I have him as a friend. I'm glad I have him in my life.

I hope that when I do find someone else, he's good enough that I don't compare him to you.

For now I'll just enjoy my life. And finish my thesis. I know that you want to read it and I've promised I'll let you. It gives me something to look forward to, when I'm not in the mood to do my work.

I miss talking to you. Go green, handsome! :)

Geng buzz skewlah, sila duduk diam jika anda tahu saya bercakap tentang siapa. Haha.

Hooray!

2010-12-13T17:10:00.001+08:00

My parents are back home! :D:D:D

Ok that's all. *grins*

Kawin!

2010-12-08T12:01:00.003+08:00

This will be a quick post.

Last Sunday for the first time ever, I went to a blogger's wedding. Whom I've never met before. And I drove there. With a friend. It's the first time ever I went to a wedding on my own! No parents! Hahahha!

Anyway.

The wedding belongs to cik Hana kite yang kiut miut itu. At Sungai Petani. The direction given on the card was not really complete, I mean, it showed that if you took Sungai Petani Selatan exit, you just go straight don't kona-kona. Tapi kena kona jugak! Nasib baik aku macam agak tau jalan kat SP tu haha. I hate maps. But in the end, we found the venue.

Kenduri kampung! Dah lama tak pegi kenduri kampung hehe. Selalu pegi kenduri buat kat dewan, ini buat kat depan rumah tuuuuuuuu. :D :D :D Disebabkan aku tak kenal blogger2 yang lain, maka aku dengan majin telah mengaplikasikan kaedah dine and dash. Tak sempat nak tunggu King sampai pun alaaaaa nak tengok King. Hahaha.

Gambo pun ada sekeping je. Nah korang tengok pengantin kita berbaju merah makngah gituu. Hehe. Tima kaseh Hana jemput aku datang kenduri! Lebiu! Semoga berbahagia sampai bila2!

First time gua pakai kebaya pegi kenduri...Hahahhaha!

Le sigh

2010-11-30T10:56:00.002+08:00

OMG I'm so lazy to cooooooooooooooooooooooooook!!!

Last night I got diarrhea. And now I'm worn out, tired and cranky. Is my tummy intolerant towards wholegrain bread? Because that's what I ate yesterday! Boo.

And Scruffy being super busy is not helping either. I miss talking to you, handsome. :(

Hopefully I'll get well by today. Letih oo!

Staying alone

2010-11-24T16:49:00.003+08:00

I've been staying alone for 6 days now. Well, 4 days, because Kema and Terabeng accompanied me last weekend.

On the fridge I have a list of what I should do everyday before I go to sleep, they are:
- Water the plants,
- Switch off anything I should switch off,
- Lock the doors and windows, and
- Turn off the gas.

Ahh I hate watering the plants. I have this paranoia where I think everyone is watching every single thing I do. Perasan, I think that's the word. So each time I have to step out of the gate to water the plants I curse and curse and curse because I really am uncomfortable. I don't have any body issues. I love how I look. What makes me uncomfortable is that I'm afraid what people think of me, like, why is she watering the plant at this hour (noon)? Why she's still wearing her pajamas (if I had my way, or lived where nobody can see me, I'll just wear spaghetti strap tank top and short shorts. I just throw on the pajama for some decency.) at this hour (noon)? Why she's this why she's that and all that jazz.

The truth is, NO ONE CARES. And also, I shouldn't even care. I don't give them any problems, do I? Did they curl up and die each time they see me? No. So why should I care?

Go away, paranoia.

I should be jumping up and down because I finally get to stay alone at home, if only for two weeks. Well, I did that on the first day. Then the next day I felt really pathetic for having to cook only for one, moi. If you want to see me not munching on food all the time, see me when I'm alone in the house. Sadis gila ok makan sorang-sorang?!

Other than those two things, I'm quite happy because I get to do things that I've always want to do if I'm alone. Things, that you readers don't need to know. ;)

Like I've told someone before, I don't mind living alone anywhere else in the world, just not at my own house. You know, the house where your parents also live in.

I think what I'm trying to say is, I miss my parents. Huargh balikla cepat.

And also I hate watering the plants. Everytime it rains I smile widely because that means I don't have to go out and water the plants! BOOYAH!

Happy Thanksgiving to you, handsome. :)

Ode to the idiot box

2010-11-22T14:48:00.002+08:00

Oh idiot box how wonderful you are,
Full of channels,
Wonderful ones, useless ones, drooling ones (hi AFC),
I love you so much,
Making my days of staying alone bearable,
Providing background noise,
I switched you on and leave it until late night,
So that the house doesn't feel so lonely,
So thank you, idiot box. <3

I have a been watching TV a lot more in this week than I have this past few years combined. Although banyak gila program repeat (yang repeat banyak kali gila). Hoi repeat sikit-sikit sudah.

Raya

2010-11-17T11:12:00.002+08:00

Happy Eid-ul Adha people! Takde pegi surau tolong melapah ke? Heheh.

Handsome, I miss you very much! Get your ass online pronto, please? :(

SMS

2010-11-15T13:03:00.002+08:00

Since my parents went to Hajj almost 3 weeks ago, these are the only (well, almost) sms-es/calls I've sent to my mom:
- Mak, macam mana nak masak asam pedas?
- Mak, mana udang kering? Tak jumpa dalam peti ais pun.
- Mak, cili kering tu kena rebus dulu ka baru blend?
- Mak, masak jintan tu apa bendanya yang nak kena tumis??
- Mak, macam mana nak masak udang sos cili tu?

Um, yeah. I'm not really the type who asks hi how are you doing is everyone healthy I'm thinking of you I miss you yadayadayada. Because 1) I'm really not that type. Just know that if I call you for no reason or maybe to ask some stupid question, that's because I AM thinking of you. I just don't want to admit it, and, 2) I might just cryyyyyyyy if I start asking how are they. Boohoo. Baiklah aku kontrol macho di sini. Eheks.

And also, can't you tell I'm a foodie already? Besides, my big brother for the first time ever tasted my Malay cooking, and he likes it. He was surprised his little sister has a hidden talent, I think. :P If, you can call it a talent lah.

Esok masak udang! Hah hah hah.

Hmm

2010-11-11T21:06:00.003+08:00

*blend blend bawang, belacan, cili boh bagai*

*tumis-tumis*

*boh air asam jawa*

*katok serai*

*boh ikan*

*masuk daun cenohom*

*makan*

Aku lupa siang ikan ke? Sisik berterabur!

Aku buat dono je sebab sebelum mak aku gi Mekah, dia gigih gila siang ikan semua. Bajek aku tak reti siang ikan ah tu T_T Pastu tadi makan sisik keras tu banyak pulak attack mulut aku. Ceh.

Bits of life

2010-11-09T19:06:00.005+08:00

I haven't been cooking as much as I wanted to, namely because I've been crashing at my friend's place for a few days. Needed to get out from the house. Needed to socialise. Needed to not feel depressed and start thinking life is meaningless and I'm alone wahwahwah.

Speaking of which, everytime I watch/read something that is produced in England, for example Hustle, The Secret Diary of a Call Girl (love Billie Piper, can't wait for the next season in January!), and so on, I can't help but feel the vibe of we are so alone in this world. Maybe it's because of the gloomy weather?

I am still pissed that I have to waste another semester reworking on my thesis proposal because 1) my Mini Bajet has only 2 semesters left, 2) there goes my plan of completing my MA in one and a half year. But I know there's always something good will come out of it. Think positive, ayaq, think positive.

Well can I start thinking positive tomorrow? Heh.

Oh, I totally am good in reverse parking now. Haha. Practice makes perfect! I still don't know how to park the usual way for 90 degrees parking, btw, I just reverse park. *kembang hidung* And also, I know how to park at my house without my mom or dad guiding the way now. Sapa2 yang pernah datang rumah aku tu tau la betapa horrornya nak park dekat rumah aku. HAHAHAHA.

But apparently, I still drive like a setan. According to some lah. Kak Nurul rilek je naik keta ngan aku. :D

I want to cook asam pedas tomorrow. But tomorrow I'll be in the uni, which translates I will only be home near Maghrib.

Kita makan lusa je lah.

ぼんやりする

2010-11-07T20:32:00.002+08:00

Work done for this semester.

Pheeeeeeeeeew.

Procrastinator is my middle name, and yet I find that I work best under pressure. Having this feeling of finish-your-work-or-die-trying keeps me going.

After a week of listening to 200+ audio files varying from one minute thirty seconds to 15 freaking minutes, I'm done from doing any more work. At least for this 36 hours. ;)

I'm craving for Baskin Robbins. Didn't get to buy it last month due to my mom menyumbat freezer dengan segala ayam daging ikan bagai sebagai bekalan dia dengan bapak aku pergi Mekah. Kalau aku beli BR, mana aku nak letak. Haha!

I'm also craving for someone. But, enough of that. :)

I'm wondering what I want to do tomorrow... I need to move! I can't sit still.

Later.

Iskkk

2010-11-01T18:01:00.002+08:00

*bukak peti ais*

*termenung 10 minit (gila membazir karan)*

Apa nak masak ni???

Mesti mak aku hari2 macam tu. Huaaaa cepat la balik Mekah~~~

Pizza...and the other thing.

2010-10-30T10:52:00.003+08:00

So yesterday Kema and I went to Pizza Hut at TESCO for a (very) late lunch. Our tea time is actually our lunch time. 5pm lunch!

Anyway.

We ordered the new 6 Cheese Extreme Pizza because 1) we love cheese; 2) we were very kebuloq and any food that guarantees to fill us up in an instant looks good to us 3) I don't think we had any idea what to eat for our (late) lunch.

We chose the regular set, which comes with mushroom soup and garlic bread. The food were gone as soon as it touched our table. Including the pizza. Licin! THAT was how kebuloq we were.

After that we went round the TESCO to buy more food. Bekalan di hari tua ok? I feel the happiest when we shop for food. Heh heh. And eating it. Heh heh heh.

Before we went back home, I stopped by a magazine stand to buy a mag. I picked up the mag, handed out the money, and the uncle was supposed to give back the balance. But! He was holding the balance money in his hand, and make a gesture as if he wants to give it to me, but he doesn't. In my heart I was like "Eiii pakcik, bagi je lah duit belen tu apasal nak main2 nak bagi tanak nak bagi tanak kat aku ni!".

And then I noticed. He was looking at my chest.

Fuck.

I wonder how many guys saw my cleavage yesterday. (Btw, thanks uncle for telling me. Although subtlety is not my best trait. Lampi ok aku nak pikap hint hint ni?)

Well, partly it was my fault. Should've worn a camisole inside. Nasib baik aku pakai bra cantik semalam. *keji*

FML

2010-10-29T00:30:00.004+08:00

So.

I have to present my proposal AGAIN. Apparently, it wasn't good enough. After the presentation, my friends who were there said that they think my presentation is just fine. There were some mistakes here and there. Heck, I'd even thought I just need to repair it. NOT present it again.

And, apparently, all three presenters (including me) had to present again. Seriously. Today (yesterday, by the time this entry is published) is full of WTFs and FMLs.

Kept a pokerface throughout the entire time, only to bawl my eyes out when I reached home. Doesn't help that my parents are now on their way to Makkah either. Okay, maybe that helps. I hope they'll pray that I can finish my MA next year. Like seriously. But still, 6 weeks in the house without my parents? That's just sad. It might seemed fun a month before, hooray no parents! But now, I want my mommy. T_T

Sigh. Back to square one.

Thank you, handsome, for giving me moral support before the presentation. :)

Oh mai gaaaaaaaaawd!!!

2010-10-27T10:59:00.004+08:00

Apa aku nak jawab esok niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii arggghhhhhhhhhhh gelabahnyaaaaaaaaa!!! Awat depa tak bagi supervisor aku maiiiii biaq pi la dia nak mai kalau dia tengah cuti sabatikal ponnnnnnn akldhalkdhakjfhkjfhf bukannya aku yang suruh dia mai, dia sendiri yang nak. Waaaa mami dediiii. Dah la malam tu mak dengan ayah dah blah pi Tabung Haji esoknya tu dah blah pi Mekah pulak huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

I want my Scruffy. :(

Note: Tomorrow after lunch is my thesis proposal presentation. Wish me luck! Harap2 lepas je proposal aku tu. Huhu. And then at night my parents will be staying at Tabung Haji before flying off to Makkah. Isk isk isk srotttt.

And. Of courseeeeeeeee everyone I know is coming. Or at least have been forced to come by my lecturers. *buries head in the earth* FML weyyy.

Ahem. So, I will apologise awal-awal if my presentation is not as good as expected. Don't put high hopes on me. Aku stress gila ni ok?! Hehe.

Love and let go?

2010-10-25T10:13:00.008+08:00

You always heard the phrase "if you love someone/something let them go yadayadayada...", right?

I'm a big believer of that. Until this morning.

I figured, why should I keep letting go things that I love? Mind you, this is not restricted only to people. Mostly people, but not really.

Why can't I have the cake and eat it too? (I seriously have a problem with this proverb, it doesn't make sense. However, after reading the-always-helpful Wikipedia, I now know that this proverb is a corruption of the original, which was 'wolde you bothe eate your cake, and have your cake?'. Now it makes sense.)

Ahem, by the way.

I have decided that from now on I shall love, and never let go. Unless there's a special circumstances which force me to do so (and only I decide, that the circumstance is indeed a special one). But other than that, never.

Stay, hey love. Where you're running to?
Awful happens all the time. Don't let it kill you...

[ETA]
I have to put this down. Have to have to have to.

He's not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect.
But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can.
He doesn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.
Don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give.
Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had.
Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you.

Bob Marley

Seems like Miss Ayaq is in love, no?
Yes, no, maybe. Who knows.
She doesn't even know herself.

Vegetarian

2010-10-21T10:56:00.002+08:00

I have just realised something.

I have Indian friends who are vegetarians.

One of my Chinese lecturer is a vegetarian.

Heck, someone whom shall be nameless is a vegetarian. Pesce-vegetarian, if you wish. ;)

But.

I have not one single Malay friend who is a vegetarian. None. Zero. Nada. Zilch.

Why eh?

We Malays just can't be separated from our chickens and beef and mutton and lambs and camels and all other (halal) meats, is that it?

Now, if I were to live somewhere outside Malaysia, where halal meats are so very hard to find, I might go down the vegetarian route. But then again, before I go down that route, I will find hatta ke lubang cacing sekalipun for a place that sells halal meat. If all else fails, then, vegetarian I'll be. Teehee.

Besides, Malaysia is too full of good foods lah, for sure cannot be vegetarian one. I respect kow-kow whomever is a vegetarian in this Bolehland.

Now, I want rendang tok. Ingat time raya saja ada rendang tok? Oh tidak, aku telah memaksa mak aku untuk masak rendang tok untuk bekalan 6 minggu sepanjang mak bapak aku pi Haji. Muahahaha!